it's the time of the year!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

thought i might wanna drop by and say hello, am guilty to admit that i haven't been here in eons, though i do tag once in a while.

read junyi's post about ponning prom and hey! i ponned prom too. well i used the word ponned for the lack of a better word, but rather, SA didn't exactly give me and my classmates much reasons to spend money on prom.

i know my reaction to prom is possibly very different to amanda's version of prom, given that she feels nostalgia about seeing the words st andrew's junior college on stage and all, but really, it's in the eyes of the beholder.

but there's not to say that we don't feel nostalgic at all, we do say that we miss st andrew's, in terms of the cafe, the air conditioned tutorial rooms, waiting till 5pm for soccer/rugby matches, elephant walk, and that heartbreaking moment when soccer team lost (albeit suspiciously) to nj. that moment when everyone cried.

so fine, there are quite a number of nostalgic and good memories we've had in st andrew's but maybe, we just couldn't pin point at a good reason to just attend prom.

but hey, at least we think we're going to redeem ourselves when we drop by for the move to SAV (st andrew's village), feelings of nostalgia; or otherwise.

happy holidays kids!

lings!

said 1t07 at 5:16 PM

hey guys, thought i would post here, say a quick hello. i'm enlisting in a couple of hours, about.. 4h 20min to be exact, so, i guess a chapter of my life has ended, a new one beginning -- NS.

still love you guys, and yeah, like junyi said, 2004, 1st 3 months, a time never forgotten :)

gonna keep this short and sweet, cos i need to be sleepin, yeah, so take care all, merry christmas and such! hope to get a reunion together soon, maybe on new years or something:) i'll try to get somethign together, so stay tuned!

anwyays, hope to see all of you soon! enjoy the break while you can..

-bing

said 1t07 at 3:36 AM

PROM PONNERS PWN (drafted on 1/12/05) (continued on 18/12/05)


hey guys! juz had a chat w mark and he said i'd better post this here.. so here i am, blogging abt why i ponned prom..or rather,the less obvious issues surrounding this topic: JC life.


firstly, imma kip this post short, so pardon me for my lack of, or inadequate, elaboration. the past 2 yrs have gone pretty fast..time didnt juz fly, it telelported. lemme juz relate to u this experience i had,3 days ago.

as u shld know (A level canditates ya'll). the A levels ended kinda early for some of u; mine ended pretty late, on the 28th. it was my art practical paper, a 3 hr-ed paper (8-11). as the clock struck 11am, u would've tot i felt the same kinda liberation as most, if not all of u did. u would've tot i would rush off home to burn my books, or at least rush off to town to haffun wif my other art classmates. i thought so too.

yet the moment the examiner said 'ure dismissed', and the room was in total chaos, i astonished myself. while every1 was announcing plans for grp lunch, post prom activities &c &c, i picked up my bag, and went straight to the loo, to get away from every1 else. after rejuvenating myself with some water, i made a mad dash to the main gate, and continued running a few kilometres, for abt ten bus stops, before hitching a bus to head home:

[09:35:54 PM] love,unrequi: along the way i was
[09:35:56 PM] love,unrequi: feeling like
[09:36:00 PM] love,unrequi: totally fucked up
[09:36:05 PM] love,unrequi: not from fatigue
[09:36:14 PM] love,unrequi: not from sadness
[09:36:20 PM] love,unrequi: juz an overwhleming nostalgia
[09:36:24 PM] love,unrequi: a weird
[09:36:27 PM] love,unrequi: melancholic feeling
[09:36:33 PM] love,unrequi: couldnt get rid of it
[09:36:36 PM] love,unrequi: went home
[09:36:41 PM] love,unrequi: cleared my books
[09:36:44 PM] love,unrequi: and notes
[09:36:50 PM] love,unrequi: and threw them away
[09:36:55 PM] love,unrequi: but the moment i started sorting em
[09:37:02 PM] love,unrequi: till the moment i finished
[09:37:11 PM] love,unrequi: i felt totally shitty
[09:37:20 PM] love,unrequi: i looked at the notes
[09:37:24 PM] love,unrequi: over the past 2 yrs
[09:37:32 PM] love,unrequi: i saw the notes that i misplaced.
[09:37:41 PM] love,unrequi: finally, when i didnt nid
them, i recovered them
[09:37:48 PM] love,unrequi: i looked at
[09:37:55 PM] love,unrequi: the notes that look unfamiliar
[09:38:00 PM] love,unrequi: browsed thru them
[09:38:21 PM] love,unrequi: and realised they were notes i ignored, that could've
made me understand my subjects more adequately
[09:38:27 PM] love,unrequi: i looked at photocopied versions of model essays
[09:38:29 PM] love,unrequi: and thought to myself
[09:38:42 PM] love,unrequi: why didnt i read these, and hopefully
become more like them?
[09:38:54 PM] love,unrequi: and considering my a level scripts were
nowhere as gd
[09:39:00 PM] love,unrequi: they foreshadowed
[09:39:04 PM] love,unrequi: poor grades fer my As.
[09:39:07 PM] love,unrequi: that same night
[09:39:13 PM] love,unrequi: when i went to slp
[09:39:15 PM] love,unrequi: i drmt
[09:39:20 PM] love,unrequi: i had another paper the nxt day
[09:39:26 PM] love,unrequi: and i was late
[09:39:28 PM] love,unrequi: i woke up
[09:39:32 PM] love,unrequi: feeling like totally tensed up and crap.
[09:39:52 PM] love,unrequi: i tot i was shocked bcos exams were not
over
[09:40:00 PM] love,unrequi: but i corrected myself after a while.
[09:40:02 PM] love,unrequi: i was actually
[09:40:06 PM] love,unrequi: feeling nostalgic for exams.
[09:40:09 PM] love,unrequi: not juz for exams;
[09:40:14 PM] love,unrequi: but for my past
[09:40:17 PM] love,unrequi: 2 yrs.
[09:40:24 PM] love,unrequi: all the tutorials
[09:40:26 PM] love,unrequi: & lectures;
[09:40:29 PM] love,unrequi: frenz;
[09:40:34 PM] love,unrequi: gossiping;
[09:40:43 PM] love,unrequi: waving to acquantiances along the
corridor;
[09:40:52 PM] love,unrequi: seeing every1 dressed in grey;
[09:40:58 PM] love,unrequi: the art block;
[09:41:02 PM] love,unrequi: the parade square;
[09:41:05 PM] love,unrequi: the library;
[09:41:15 PM] love,unrequi: the canteen;
[09:41:17 PM] love,unrequi: the grandstand;
[09:41:25 PM] love,unrequi: all these memories
[09:41:31 PM] love,unrequi: all these places, physical
architectures
[09:41:34 PM] love,unrequi: they'll always b there,
[09:41:37 PM] love,unrequi: true.
[09:41:41 PM] love,unrequi: but experiences,
[09:41:45 PM] love,unrequi: though intangible
[09:41:51 PM] love,unrequi: and vague,
[09:41:58 PM] love,unrequi: would stay forever.
[09:42:07 PM] love,unrequi: and as i looked at my schedule
[09:42:12 PM] love,unrequi: realising im heading to ns next,
[09:42:15 PM] love,unrequi: and after tt
[09:42:27 PM] love,unrequi: going to uni (hopefully if my As made
it)
[09:42:34 PM] love,unrequi: away from this system;
[09:42:41 PM] love,unrequi: this umbrella
[09:42:43 PM] love,unrequi: forever.
[09:42:57 PM] love,unrequi: i felt like the biggest fool on earth-
[09:43:04 PM] love,unrequi: never bothering to cherish anything;
[09:43:12 PM] love,unrequi: never stopping to take a better look;
[09:43:18 PM] love,unrequi: or take a bigger breath
[09:43:28 PM] love,unrequi: of the jc campus;
[09:43:36 PM] love,unrequi: but silently,
[09:43:40 PM] love,unrequi: wishing it would pass by,
[09:43:44 PM] love,unrequi: only to regret it
[09:43:48 PM] love,unrequi: the moment it all ended-
[09:43:58 PM] love,unrequi: the moment the examiner said
[09:44:00 PM] love,unrequi: 'ure dismissed'.
[09:44:06 PM] love,unrequi: days b4 my last paper ended
[09:44:12 PM] love,unrequi: when other pple cheered like theres no tmr;
[09:44:16 PM] love,unrequi: when their papers were over,
[09:44:17 PM] love,unrequi: i tot
[09:44:22 PM] love,unrequi: 'juz u wait..i'll b done soon'
[09:44:28 PM] love,unrequi: but when i sat down and thought abt it,
[09:44:34 PM] love,unrequi: an idea haunted me:
[09:44:39 PM] love,unrequi: i want this life to go on forever.
[09:44:45 PM] love,unrequi: i want to b a canditate
[09:44:50 PM] love,unrequi: forever
[09:44:53 PM] love,unrequi: sitting for exams forever;
[09:44:58 PM] love,unrequi: never having to see my grades;
[09:45:03 PM] love,unrequi: juz keep on doing the papers;
[09:45:08 PM] love,unrequi: going home early;
[09:45:14 PM] love,unrequi: look at the entry proof;
[09:45:19 PM] love,unrequi: preparing to study for the nxt paper;
[09:45:20 PM] love,unrequi: and
[09:45:28 PM] love,unrequi: playing the computer now and then
[09:45:37 PM] love,unrequi: while havin a tinge of guilt
[09:45:43 PM] love,unrequi: that im enjoying even tho the exams
arent over yet.


so here i am, 1st dec, on the nite of njc's prom, blogging online, ponning prom, as if it was a cool thing. it isnt. 'prom ponners pwn', my msn nick, is a facade; a mask i put on, to deceive myself; mebbe a dozen others, but 1 thing i cant change. i missed prom. the once in a lifetime experience; the last chance to get to see everyone from my cohort, together.

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Looking at the prom pics from an NJC-ian's (or, more accurately, an ex-njcian's) website, i noticed that there was almost no nostalgia as opposed to what i thought i would have felt. in fact, i dunt know how to continue this post due to the loss of spontaneity of the situation..the next few lines shall attempt to redeem the senselessness of this post, which i have thoughts about removing.

Guys are going for NS soon: do take care of urselves realli. it'll be hell for the first few months but once we get thru it everything'll b fine. =) as for the galss,do enjoy ur free time away from sch, try to do smth constructive and upgrade urselves and prepare for uni. in wadever u do, i wish u the best. Excel in all future endeavours and accomplish what you only dared to dream of.the road of life is long and winding and, as our education so briefly and regretably ended, the nxt bend in the road would prove to be rocky and tedious indeed. never give up in whatever u do, and only say u cant do it when u've failed at least 10 times. when i was younger, they used to tell me jc is the best part of one's life..or at least for those who are going into jc at all. i agree with this statement: though i didnt get to stay in cj, the 3 months we spent had been great; a feeling that can never b manifested in any way ever again. whenever my cab passes by the lornie stretch, past cjc, i would tell myself: this is cjc, where i spent the best 3 months of my life in.

said 1t07 at 10:11 PM